We're leaving for Portland in about 10 minutes. I can't believe I'm starting chemo today. It's all seemed so surreal until now. I'm wearing my "Hey Cancer..." shirt, so at least I'm wearing the right attitude. I'm trying to stay positive, and I am for the most part, I'm just scared of the drugs. I've heard of people having such bad experiences during chemo.
I hardly slept at all last night due to my leg hurting so bad. Usually I can keep it under control with oxycontin, but last night it just didn't cut it. I think it was the stupid cancers way of attacking me with pain one last time before I attack it with chemo!
Wish me luck! Is it bad that I secretly hope my hair falls out?! I was looking forward to wearing my wigs! They say I might not lose it now because I'm only having three treatments. Shoot.
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