Sunday, April 6, 2008

M-I-S-E-R-A-B-L-E

That pretty much sums up how I've been feeling since I last wrote. I was sick all last night and I have a hard time wondering how I'm going to make it through two more treatments. Thank goodness I only have to have three instead of six. I'd really be feeling depressed if I had to feel like this until September!

I'm walking now (no crutches!), but it takes forever to get anywhere. I'm excited that the pain in my leg is down to about a 2...the lowest it's been...but I'd almost take that pain over what I've been feeling these last several days. It's horrible! So much for chemo drugs coming a long way! I know everyone reacts differently, but hopefully I'll snap out of this soon! When looking around the room on my first day of chemo, some people looked like they hadn't gone through anything and others looked like they'd been to hell and back.

Another big complaint is the fact that I have the energy of a slug. When I decide I need to take a shower, it takes about 45 minutes to even get to the bathroom. I'll get up, then I'll get so tired, I'll sit back down and sleep. It sucks! I figure for every hour I'm up and active, I have to sleep for about 3 to make up for it. I can't wait to have my life back again!

Thanks again to all of you for the cards, letters, e-mails, calls, flowers, yummy dinners....it means so much!

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